Not really sure if i am doing this right. I am addicted to percocet and pretty much any kind of pain killer i can get my hands on. I started this about a year ago and have lost almost anything I had. Most importantly I have lost myself. I do not know who I am anymore. I thought I would join this site in hopes to feel i'm not alone in this. I am scared, confused, and so afraid to ask for help. I want to feel like me again and start taking the road to recovery.
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I understand how you feel, you really do loose yourself. The drugs take over and consume your every waking thought. I don't know about you but I go to bed at night thinking about when I will have my next pill and wake up thinking about that pill. I'm so tired but so weak I just can't fight anymore. I've never let anything get ahold of me like this. I am a christian, I don't drink, smoke or even curse. But because of my fibromyalgia, arthritis and other pain I was put on pain meds. and it just got out of hand like everyone else out there I didn't intentionally start abusing pills. It started out inocently enough by taking just one more to ease the pain just to wind up having to take them to keep from having withdrawals. I don't know what to do because I've got to have something for pain. What do I do? If I go to re-hab and get detoxed I'll just be in pain again and the cycle will begin again. Any advice or encourageing words? ?