i am 22 years old and i have struggled with an eating disorder for about 10 years of my life, on and off. i would starve my self, limit my intake, and when i would have to eat i would throw up. when i was old enough to move out and be on my own i went off to school and i could control things better so i would go for weeks and even months with out eating and then when i couldn't get away form the concerned friends and people breathing down my back i would start eating again, at first healthy and exercising a ton, but the weight came back so fast and i would find my self binging and purging more and more and then the shame and guilt and numbness led to cutting. My life was spiraling out of control. i graduated from school, i lost my job and my car got stolen and i had no place to live. I moved in with my pastor and his family and he was already a mentor in my life but we both knew i needed intense help and so moving in with him was my attempt. and it is working. i am eating, i am not throwing up or cutting and yes a lot of it is that i am being watched and the option isn't there, but i am doing a lot better. But here is my question for those of you out there who have been to treatment centers and facilities, i am finding that now that i am eating more normally, i want to eat all the time, i am gaining weight and i am dying to starve myself but i am not going down that road anymore. Is there a diet i can follow out there, or foods that are good for recovering anorexic/bulimics? i am desperate not to run back to my habits and addictions, i just need information, i eat healthy as it is but i don't think just eating healthy is enough.
Any input, advice, encouragement would be greatly appreciated!
Thanks and God Bless!
