Hello all. I am a 45 year old mother of two. I have had a drinking problem for almost 30 years and I am tired, tired, tired of this. I am obviously a slow learner. I want to stop FOR GOOD this time. I have tried and tried and I always trick myself into thinking I can have a drink now and then, but I CAN'T!!!!! I want a clean, sober, thinking life. I want a clear mind and a clear conscience. I want to LIVE!