Just needed to tell someone, anyone who would read this...
Have finally gotten the concrete proof that hubby is still "dirty" and buying his pills. His lies continue and I've lost all hope that he wants to be better for his family. He even went to his first NA meeting this past Wednesday. But lied about attending with a certain person.
I have taken steps this morning to see an attorney and begin divorce papers. I will not allow him to lie to me and the kids any longer and spiral down with him. I love him, but he needs to find his own strength to want to break out of his problem. I can't watch him destroy any more of me, the kids or himself. I believe I WILL be better off without him.
God be with him.


I am so sorry to hear about your situation. I know we can only be so strong as we try to push someone we love into recovery. A prayer can go along way.
I have fallen into the pills game myself by getting on Vicodin. It seems to win every time so I know how he feels. I am trying to get off right now. It aint easy but I hope every day will get better. I am trying not to drink to deal with not taking the vics. Just trying to keep my mind off things and keep interacting online. Thanks for listening.
Good for you, but I know its got to be a bitter sweet feeling.