Posted: Mon May 05, 2008 6:41 pm Post subject: exercising
Hi..I am new to this forum thing. I am 21 and have been struggling with "disordered eating" for the past couple of years. It became the worst while I first went off to college and was playing division I lacrosse. I started to loose weight with all the activity I was doing and wasnt eating as much as I did at home...i guess I liked this but it got out of control. I cycled through starving and then binge-purging. I lost a good 15 lbs which I have failedto regain and am at a low weight for my height causing me to loose my period . anyways.. I transferred to a college close to home where I commute to school. living at home has allowed me to focus much more on my eating/exercising. I find it really hard to NOT exercise every day. I feel like I jus tneeeed it to function and not feel like depressed all day. I know i am still at a low weight but just cant find a balance...any advice?
I know what it feels like to HAVE to excercise everyday. I think we are somewhat lucky that we have that drive, yet we don't know how to balance it functunaly. I turn nasty if i don't excercise. It controls my mood as much as my food intake does.
Is your family aware of your problems? My Mum and I just started attending a family and suffers support group for eating disorders. I think this will be a Very helpful tool for my mum to understand what I am fighting and going through..
yea, my family is very aware of everything and very supporitve and just want to help me. I see a therapist as well , but I dont feel it really helps me that much. I feel like exercising just gives me that mood boost I need to get through the day...as well as to "balance" what I eat. I wish there was a way I could calm it down, but Ill try to and then the cylce just starts again! This also makes eating hard sometimes too cause Ill be so hungry from working out but will only eat healthyfoods. I do eat alot tho, I dont starve myself at all...just very particular about what I will and will not have..
